You are stirring up songs in me. So I'll sing, sing, sing. I'll sing for you.

Still it remains a mystery, Lord. This great love that saved my soul.

And as I nailed you to the tree, you poured forgiveness out on me.

For the God who gave His life, I now abandon mine. I lay me down, God.

I wish that I had something deep, cute or clever to say.

But I don't.

As I stare at this screen, I simply sit in the middle of the traffic of my thoughts. My life honestly has started taking a turn for the better and I'm so hopeful and excited for what is to come. Summer is on the horizon, the beginning of my senior year is slowly making its way to me, Brioso is leaving for tour in like, 2 weeks (!!!) and well, I'm a happy panda. :)

Yesterday and today was spent in the company of my best friend (and a few other awesome people!) who I am forever grateful for. We visited her ABS house and took part in a few great discussions and well, showing up Zach Wingard in basketball was also great fun. ;) Sometimes it takes sharing a polar bear blanket, chowing down on popcorn and Swedish Fish, watching cartoons and simply laughing together to realize that God has blessed with me some of the greatest friends ever.

On a different note, my mind right now seems to have more traffic than Bear Valley road at rush-hour. With the upcoming holiday, Watson essay topics bouncing around in my head, events from the past few days, my thoughts seem to be running away from me. The sunburn ain't doing great things either. :P 

With all that being said, I wish I had something interesting to give you, some bits of wisdom from my ginger mind, but I'm afraid that I don't. Just a bunch of smiles and some silly pictures. Thank you for actually reading this, it really does mean a lot. I really am blessed with the chance to be with amazing people that love me and that support me, and you being one of them, thanks. I love you. :)

On that note, I bid you farewell.

Later bro,

Kyls. <3

In Christ alone my hope is found

He is my light, my strength, my song

This Cornerstone, this solid ground

Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love, what depths of peace

When fears are stilled, when strivings cease

My Comforter, my All in All

Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh

Fullness of God in helpless babe

This gift of love and righteousness

Scorned by the ones He came to save

'Till on that cross as Jesus died

The wrath of God was satisfied

For every sin on Him was laid

Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay

Light of the world by darkness slain

Then bursting forth in glorious Day

Up from the grave He rose again

And as He stands in victory

Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me

For I am His and He is mine

Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death

This is the power of Christ in me

From life's first cry to final breath

Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell, no scheme of man

Can ever pluck me from His hand

'Till He returns or calls me home

Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.

Sometimes, I forget how great it feels to smile.

On a different note:

It really frustrates when people always go back to their old ways. When they're so broken and yet they return to the very same thing that broke them in the first place.
What bugs me even more is that I'm totally guilty of this.

Humans are creatures of habit. Every person has a bad habit, a slight addiction... and I don't mean biting on their nails. We flourish in what we know, what is comfortable to us and we rarely ever long to be outside of that. When we get pulled out of an environment that's comfortable to us, we'll still be able to function, but we won't be able to do so without feeling miserable or out of place. Fish out of water much.

But you know what I've learned? Sometimes, it's really freakin' amazing to be a fish out of water. We always freak out, but after the smoke clears...shoot, this pond is pretty great. After the tide of misery and discomfort has ebbed, being uncomfortable will usually lead to adjustment. Adjustment means change. And whether you like it or not, change can really lead to some amazing things. That I promise you. Through our trials, we always need to have faith and hope, that's really what will get us through.
Smile on, it gets better. Trust me. I know. :)

All that to say, I am hopeful and happy and ready for some new adventures... and I'm really hungry.

Later bro,
Kyls. :)

You are stirring up songs in me.

School is back in session, my stress has gone back it's normal "through the roof" state, my daddy is home, we are getting ready for Brioso Tour and it's a whole new month.

Sometimes I really think that I should have all of this figured out. I've been in high school for three years, I've dealt with tests and essays and projects and drama and annoying teachers and missing assignments and singing songs over and over to perfect our Brioso performances... but, this time, it's different.
It almost like I have two giant nets hanging over me. One is full of my friends, summer, short shorts, the beach, freedom, car keys, late nights, parties and Hume. I want this net to fall on me, so bad. I can not wait to be drenched in summer sun and spend endless amounts of time with my friends. This net has fun and freedom and happiness.

This other net though...not so much. This net is my reminder of everything that's gone wrong. This net is my reminder that I'm tired and I'm sick and I'm overwhelmed and I'm lonely and I'm hurt and I really miss the ways things used to be. The threat of this huge weight falling on me seems far more imminent than the other. It seems these ropes are a little less strong and a little more willing to break.
Yet, to be completely honest, I'm happy and I'm hopeful.
I really mean that.

Ps: This song is my jaaaam. ;D

Later bro,
Kyls. :)